When we found out I was pregnant, I cried mostly over two things:
1. Alcohol - Imagine at least a year without it!
2. No more climbs - We got the positive test one week after getting back from Mt. Daguldul. We were set to get back on track with climbing at least once a month with Pulag as a year-ender so that was pretty frustrating.
I’m totally over those. I don’t get affected anymore when some friends invite me for a night out or some drinks. I’d say I can go and get a fruit shake without even a hint of bitterness. I’m not sure if I even miss it. I miss street food though (isaw most especially! hehe). When Wapak-mates (our climbing group) organize or go on climbs, I’d wish them well without getting irritated. No sigh of grief here. I’m in no hurry to get back on the trail but I’ll surely be looking forward to it after the baby’s born.
I think it’s all because I’m totally enjoying my pregnancy now. I’m actually surprised that I don’t feel like I’m missing out.
There’s so much to look forward to everyday with a little one on the way. The kicks and somersaults, hip pain, weight gain, distorted tummy, outfits and all that wonderful shit. Damn I even want to do a photo shoot! This pregnancy has surely given me tremendous self-esteem boost. I’m loving the curves I finally get to have even if I feel like a "butete" sometimes. I enjoy dressing up and I find myself planning what to wear the next day. That was so not me! Haha!
Sure I get paranoid sometimes but there’s always mommy forums and blogs out there. I even signed up at babycenter.com and am an active member of birth and photo clubs in that community. Also, our doctor is just one text/call away.
It’s truly such a magical feeling taking part in the miracle of creation. I never thought I’d embrace all these this much. We’re so excited to have this baby. Everything is so much more meaningful now. If I was overflowing then, imagine how many oceans of love, life and faith in how many worlds could we fill now.
Having an awesome guy by your side can surely do wonders too. What more if there’s two of them. Thank you Lord! Thank you Eli! We have been profoundly blessed. All the love to You and you! <3
So here I am now… 25 1/2 weeks along and feeling GREAT! I guess that must be great for the baby too. Well, that’s all that matters. :D